So im about to begin casting for a female-impersonator
Not particularly old or young, ambiguous like a large strange doll.
Long dark hair and exaggerated theater makeup is paramount.
"...little by little I am building my own beliefs, but they are all, though firm, very indefinite and unconsoling. When the intelligence asks, they answer well; but when the heart aches and begs for an answer, there is no support or consolation. With my intellectual demands and answers given...I am in the situation of two hands which would like to join, but the fingers collide."